June 18, 2006
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Love Without Conditions (reposted since my original post got gobbled up by a xanga anomaly)
Recently, I've been "figuring" out life again. I've heard it said that when people get married, or have their first child, it often feels like they've taken a step back in their spiritual lives, struggling to regain their bearings. The lofty ideas that once dwelt mostly in my head (and occasionally hitting the keyboard) now have to be lived out against another living, breathing person. I find myself re-examining what I know as fact and what I must humbly admit to confusion since there are many things I don't understand or know clearly. In these last few months of bachelorhood, I also find myself frequently asking the "P"- question. Purpose !! -- what is our life going to be about? What got me asking this question today was this beautiful, silver 2004 prius on I15 that was driving one lane left of me. It was close enough that I could see four people having a great time in the car and read the bumper sticker which said, "Evil thrives when good people do nothing."
I must give thanks to my technically superior friend Ethan for posting this song. After returning home from Eddie and Dora's, I started listening to this. I've memorized this chapter with one of my old roommates and have carefully studied this passage, but my eyes were just fixed on the lyrics as I was listening to this on my PC. I've served in a variety of church ministries since I've moved here, but right now my ambition is not to be a better teacher, a better worship leader or a better evangelist ... right now ... my ambition is to grow excellent in love.
I've been reflecting on my days as a single and have been struck by how much my heart is inclined unto selfishness in so many areas of my life.
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i'm sitting here in the office where dnick works (in dallas!) and i am blown away by haering this song streaming across the net! wow! i LOVE this song. i told my crossroads small group that i would come and play the song for them b/c i kept thinking about it in the first study. this exact song was the one that God really used to get me to re-examine my motivations, my life, and my love for him. if i do not love... i am nothing. what a radical claim. and yet, so true...
i'm excited to see how God continues to speak to you and call you and joanne both into his glorious presence in fresh ways! your perspective and willingness to go deeper and ask the questions and respond to God in ways that cultivate that open relationship with Him is very encouraging to me.
i gotta see how to play that song on my xanga... i totally wanted to share it with my Anchor small group and w/ the crossroads fellowship - do you know how?
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